OrGODnized Chaos

Have you ever been surrounded by a plethora of clutter yet maintained your ability to function and carry about your tasks for the day? I am not just talking about the clutter in our homes with stacks of undone laundry, or cars with crumbs everywhere from being on the go, or even the endless mounds of paper work that is waiting on us at the office, but also the clutter inside our hearts. Disappointment, stress, bitterness, and confusion can sometimes burden us to where we become overwhelmingly smothered by life and in essence filled with clutter. Well, that is how I have felt. If I am honest, that is how I am feeling right now. Cluttered! Failed friendships/relationships, unmet expectations with dreams and aspirations, stagnant career not knowing which endeavor to pursue, and single parenthood just to name a few. My mind has been recently filled with relentless thoughts of “clutter”. Things that I can not change, however spend endless amounts of time thinking about. While in my quiet time, the Lord reveled to me it wasn’t the “clutter” keeping me bound, but my thoughts about the “clutter”. You see, we can not change our past circumstances, or the way in which our lives develop. We can only take our experiences and enhance the moments we have yet to live.

OrGodnized Chaos was a term given to me in the latter part of 2018. The receptionist at work told me that my office was organized chaos, because although things were scattered abroad, I always knew where to find what was needed. I thought this was the perfect term for me. When you see me, I appear to have it all together (or so I’ve been told). You see my speech is well versed with the proper vocabulary, my attire will be befitting of the occasion, and my stature will appear to exude confidence. These are all examples of the organized part of me. But let me not forget the chaos. Those little things that I don’t want people to know about me. The “clutter” within me. The negative thoughts that fill my head when things don’t go my way. The perception that I am not moving fast enough in life when I compare myself to others (Don’t ever do this). The anger at God that has built up over time, ( I’ll blog about this soon). While sitting in service last year, God told me that he could be apart of my organized chaos and help me get rid of the ” clutter”. Thus, OrGODnized Chaos was created.

We all struggle with parts of life. Some areas we are successful in and are about to thrive in, while other areas can be completely discombobulated. 1 Corinthians 14:33 reminds us that “For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.” God adding himself to my chaos will provide peace. This peace will further help my organization along life’s path. I look forward to you taking this journey with me and it is my prayer that I help you in your journey as well. Clutter Free in 2019!!

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